Thursday, November 18, 2010

Beach Outing V1 - Part 1

It's been a while since I last went to the beach, in fact this is the first time ever for this year of 2010. Back from where I came from before living here, we always went to the beach frequently, almost like twice or at least once a month thingy.




I just love it to be on the beach. I love the sea breeze, the ever changing climate - sometimes you feel cold, sometimes you feel hot, I love to step on those sands, playing with it if possible, building sand castle and so on, I love to see the clear blue sky and also looking at those ships moving slowly, I love to hear the sounds of those waves and birds, and I love to just looking around and see different people doing their own stuff, having fun on the beach and so on.... though I hate the UV from the sun coz it can caused "sun burn" to your skin especially if you forgot to applies some sun-block lotion on your skins... but then again, without the heat from the sun, the beach wont be as fun either....










Rubbish, lot's of rubbish... this is when I'm angry at those people polluting the beach and the sea....




Not sure if this is some parts from a GunPlaMo kits or maybe some parts from other type of figure/toys....






Thanks to the invention of camera phone or phone camera (what ever), now everybody can take their photo anyway..... evolution in technology is really exciting....




Not sure if the kid leave it here on purpose or he/she forgotten about it....




One of the greatest thing about digital photography now is that you will just keep on shooting, anything nice or interesting to your eyes, just keep on pressing that shutter buttons. Those days in the film era, you might think twice and calculate the expenses before you press that shutter button on your camera....







While she's busy looking for her photography subject, I'm sitting down here and looking at her from far and my mind wondering about some old story of mine....







I remember several things about my pass, some are happy moment and some are not really interesting and I try hard to erase it from my mind.





Some of the not happy thing that I think about is my relationship with my parents, I haven't seem them for many years, we have our own issue and differences and I guess we are stubborn and want to hold on to what we believe and goes separate way. I am really stubborn person, I disobey my parents and cut all ties with them to walk the path that I choose. I never regret it.

I may not be perfect but I know that despite all my flaws, I am a good person. I have tried my best to live my life the way I want it to be and in every way I tried to live a good life. I am a prodigal son maybe but I am good person. Human heart is really complex and the problems faced by every single person is quite unique to one another. There is no straight and simple solution like in the soap opera or movie that we watch in TV or cinema.

I remember the following words from the anime Gensomaden Saiyuki;

Vanity of Vanities:

...Kill Buddha as you meet him...
...Kill the Father as you meet him...
...Never be captivated by anyone, just live your life the way you are...

- Gensomaden Saiyuki


Yeah, it's just one of those quotes from anime but for me it's been my inspiration for many years now - well at least ever since I first watch that anime about 8-9 years ago...





On the other hand, I also remember some sort of love story thingy in the past when I was a lot younger and a lot skinnier - less fat than I am now...

I had this classmate and school mate of mine - I first met her since I was 14. Along the way we go thru school life like everybody else and then we grew up went our separate ways and continue with our life struggle.

I knew that all alone I like her... or maybe I love her... I'm not sure... they said those love during school era is just "puppy love" bull shit but even after we become adults, I knew that I always like that person. I always remember her and wished to meet her but we don't really have the chance to meet each other.

And then suddenly I met her again, we keep in touch a lot and I said to my self, well, maybe now this is my chance but after a while I have my own life issues that I have to deal with, one shit after another and leads on to other bull shit and slowly I forgot to keep in touch with her and day and weeks and months, when I finally wanted to get to her, she disappear. After I had work so hard to resolve what ever bull shit that I have and she's gone....

And at that moment I feel a big loss... I had the chance but for what ever excuse that I have, I missed it...

And then, after while, I eventually managed to see her again, we met at a very brief moment in Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA), I think I was rushing for some business trip or something... and there of all the places I met her... we managed to talk a bit but at that moment time is against me and I have to rush...

And eventually that is game over, that is the last time I met her ever since - silly me for not asking her phone number at that time.... sigh...

Well... sometimes, that something or someone is not meant to be for us and we just have to accept it and move on with our life and here I am now running Shewsbury Land, reviewing Gundam and figures stuff and other wonderful things in life.

Back then and maybe sometimes now, I do regret it... I knew that I love her for a very long time but I didn't tell her... as much as I want it to be, God have other plan for me and for her and also for all of us.

She never knew how much I loved her and I live with the regret that my true feelings for her never were revealed. I wish that I could get another chance but deep down I know that we have different life with different persons and situation now and we have to move on.

Oh yeah, the story didn't end there, thanks to Facebook, I somehow managed to "find" her but only recently that I have the courage to try to add her as my friend. From the profile photo, I can see that she's also happily married now. I'm not sure also if she is willing to accept my "friendship request" - but for now, at least I done what I could. She is one of my friend in the past and I hope that at least she don't mind to keep in touch with me thru Facebook.

She have her own blog dealing with cakes thingy and the them color is pink.... now I knew why for certain items, I also love pink so much (my Nintendo DS Lite is pink, my towels are pink and I have several other things which is pink) - I guess that is the legacy of my feeling towards this lady last time.

I remember that when I first met her in school, she wear this pink glasses and it look so girlish and quite cute I think.






On the other hand, I saw people playing with kites - I never had the chance to play around with that toys when I was a kid, though for now even if I have the chance, I guess I skip...






A lot has changed or rather improved since the last time I visited this beach last year...






One of my favorite photo of the day... clear blue sky with a little clouds and somebody relaxing at the beach enjoying the scenery...









I feel so happy to finally come to this beach again... for a moment I find some peace of mind to reflect on all the things that happen in my life.... and I guess, from now onwards I will come often.

Oh yeah, surely I did bring some of our children, you can see their photos here.


Do you like to go to beach? What do you like the most about being at the beach?


Continue with;

Beach Outing V1 - Part 2

Beach Outing V1 - Part 3



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1 comment:

  1. I think i saw part like that before not from Toys of course,from Diving equipment ?

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